Fueled by the guy at work who told me that Dreams don't die people do .

I confided in a professional who I trusted with my life the only one I opened up to and actually let inside We worked through a lot of demons I'd say she saved my life but, the truth is that she chan...

I'm not mad you chose to have me I'm sad that I'm alive

All my life I've hated my body ,Every inch every roll I wanted it off me ,A few desperate times I took inappropriate measures , I didn't work out but did things that took little effort, diet pills and...

The only echos that I hear are from my brain and between my ears Telling my all the ways I didn't do enough today

My heart feels like it's in my throat it's hard to breathe I could almost choke My mind is racing a million miles, It could make money if it was sold in viles

All of us of have questions on how do I fit this ,am I worthy or am I just being tested Questions of how we move on with our lives, past the things that made us once want to die

This stretch of highway I won't go I call it the forbidden zone A road that's innocent in a way but almost took my life that day

The water splashing beneath the car is a noise that makes my skin crawl It's a flashback to that day that almost took it all away

The rain on the roof is soothing in a way It reminds me that clouds get heavy somedays

Sitting on the floor of our empty apartment, Telling you all of my current problems,

Someone save me from this torture , and the demons my mind worships The ones who run my every thought & tell me that I'm better off, disappearing from this planet ,

The darkness in me makes me feel less a lone, its someone to talk to , a place to call home. it keeps all my secrets with out any worry a trust worthy companion, that lines never blurry .

Frustrated with myself and what i want in life frustrated with who i am and just being alive

moments pass , memories fade but nothing takes away the pain from a one to ten its about a seven making me wish I was in heaven

The dreamer of death speaks beneath the surface she lives and lurks but never surges, she speaks her story to the darkness below telling how she wants to go,