I have always been a girl who is afraid of ending up alone , being bullied at school at uni and even in my own house by my family . always made me feel alone , unwanted and unattractive.
One day a friend of mine gave me an advice she told me try to find a true love cuz if you did you will never be alone.
Unfortunately I took her advice took a new path trying to find my happy ending but it was never found.
I Have dates so many guys in my life trying to find the one for me and every time I give the relationship my all I end up broken hearted because Iam not slim or pretty enough to be introduced
to the parents.Then one day went online and I found a guy that we connected in matter of seconds and became best friends before You know it We expressed our feelings towards each other.
The best word to describe our relationship is magical it literally felt like a dream I was the fat girl with the short hair and he was athletic and handsome I never thought I would end up
with guy like him and I was thanking god for sending him to me .
We have been through a lot in our relationship first he got a job in the oil fields so we could not see each other and then he got injuried and had to get surgery and I was there for
him supporting him but then he started to chnage ,
he won’t text me back or talk to me for days or careless about me being alive or dead or even telling me he loves me and even though he was jerk to me I stood by his side always there for
him I broke up with him several times but I always end up back together with him .
I just felt I’m never gonna be good enough for him I lost weight went to the gym had surgey to remove the extra skin from my stomach and he was not there for me even if I died At
that surgey table he would not have known or cared ,
I loved him with all my heart and soul and he kept on hiding things from me like his work business trips I found out that he is out of the country via social media and he forgot
our anniversary and my birthday and I asked him for one thing only is to make me feel special on Valentines day he did not even send me a text or a heart shape emoji which really broke
my heart .
At the end you know want the problem is it is that I still love him with all of his flaws I can’t get over him because when my heart loves someone it won’t let it go easily even if the person
is probably cheating or partying or doing whatever the hell he is doing . I just hope that he is ok