It’s one of those nights again. The ones where you’re laying in bed in the middle of the night, thousands of thoughts running through your mind, while all you want to do is sleep.
No matter how much I’m trying to, my brain just won’t shut up and I hate it.
I hate it because all these thoughts are a blur and so unclear to me, while your name is the only thing that isn’t a blur.
It’s clearer than the stars in the night sky and clearer than the water in any of the oceans out there. Your name is tattooed into my thoughts tonight and I know I can’t get you out of there.
My heart doesn’t beat for you any more and all I’ve got from you are the traces that you left behind, traces that’ll be engraved into my memories for the rest of my life.
You were gone so quickly I never had a chance to say goodbye. You took a part of my heart with you that day. Probably why I never really got over you in the first place.
No matter how much I told myself that I was, I knew deep down that you still had my heart. Do I still love you now? I don’t know.
Will I ever be able to love someone the way I loved you? Probably, yeah. But you’ll always be in the back of my mind still. Do you think of me sometimes? Because I do think about you.
Maybe a little too much even. I know all of this doesn’t even make sense, just like you don’t make sense to me. You never made sense to me.
All I knew the second we started talking was that I’d never be able to forget you. Guess, I was right about that, at least. I truly hope that you’re happy wherever you may be in the world.
Hopefully we will see us again someday and maybe then I’ll finally get my closure.