The life of an indie artist is a lonely one.
While people get the whole "live your dreams" idea, there is a disconnect between their fantasy of it and your reality of it.
It means choosing art or livelihood
There is only so much to a paycheck, and often becomes a hard choice between daily necessities and the project you are trying to self-fund.
It means maxing out your credit cards
In modern America, it is far easier to get a credit card than an actual loan, so you sign up for three different cards with good intentions of paying them back...eventually.
It means your cell phone is suspended
It's a choice between paying your bill, or letting it ride for a month until next payday, because you need that $100 for your project. Fingers crossed they don't suspend your service before then.
It means eating microwave burritos
When self-funding, sometimes the project means more to you than basic nutrition. So you stock up on burritos when they are on sale. Better than ramen when faced with living as starving artist.
It means hitting up everyone you know for support
In an age of crowdfunding, you have to get comfortable pimping yourself for financial support from friends, family, and strangers, all while eating said burritos and not paying you cell bill.
It means obsessing over every little decision
Everything is riding on you. This means every choice gets second guessed at some point in the process, because you want to make sure you make the right one for the project at hand.
It means making friends with insomnia
Do you like sleeping? Too bad, get use to loosing it little by little, night after night, as you spend every waking moment working on every little detail well into the wee hours of the morning.
It means reaching for the sky...
You live in the reality of it, the daily struggle of it, the credit score devastating, financial gamble of it. You understand the process, you understand your awkward, tentative position.
...With your feet firmly planted.
Because you know the score in a personal, intimate way, you are free to dream the impossible dream, because you know what is a stake if you fail, and failure is not an option.