Who is your natural enemy... little mice?

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A children story about regret, PTSD, shadow and psychopaths.

Read if you want to know
how to overcome trauma and anxiety.

Who is your natural enemy... little mice?

Who is your natural enemy... little mice?

In the beginning

In the beginning there was expectation

In the beginning there was expectation and a curious gaze

In the beginning there was expectation and a curious gaze on the unsuspecting prey​

As the mercurial snake

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle,

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle, all points are plastered

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle, all points are plastered on the firmament with

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle, all points are plastered on the firmament with a promise of redemption

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle, all points are plastered on the firmament with a promise of redemption on each

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle, all points are plastered on the firmament with a promise of redemption on each and every

As the mercurial snake dived into a tickle, all points are plastered on the firmament with a promise of redemption on each and every reflection

Hmmm...

Hmmm...liTtle mouse...

Hmmm...liTtle mouse... what did you get yourself into?

Don't you know it isn't safe to walk by yourself at night?

The youth...

The youth... tsk

The youth... tsk tsk

The youth... tsk tsk tsk...

The youth... tsk tsk tsk... It's our fault,

The youth... tsk tsk tsk... It's our fault, after all,

The youth... tsk tsk tsk... It's our fault, after all, it was us who raised you...

We filled your head with fantasies...

We filled your head with fantasies...

But we failed to arm you ...

We just did not want to be the ones ...

We just did not want to be the ones to harm you.

We painted a picture of your strength...

We made you feel, that this you deserved

But we never told you what the price was...

ohh...

ohh...my litTle girl...

ohh...my litTle girl... I am sorry.

ohh...my litTle girl... I am sorry. But you see,

ohh...my litTle girl... I am sorry. But you see, It was not our fault,

ohh...my litTle girl... I am sorry. But you see, It was not our fault, Our parents...

ohh...my litTle girl... I am sorry. But you see, It was not our fault, Our parents... They failed us too...

They wouldn't tell us where to look...

Allowed others to fill our mind with ideas of distant forces

Enemies whose only wish was to oppress us...

They painted a world in which We were but a victim...

Surrounded by foreign enemies who were out to get us

"Inside, you are strong" They said...

But they forgot to to mention...

The price that must be paid

To become much more

To become much more than a little mice...

And now I am old...

And now I am old... I am bitter...

And now I am old... I am bitter... I am scared ...

And now I am old... I am bitter... I am scared ... and resentful...

But worst of all

But worst of all I am alone.

But worst of all I am alone. There is not even

But worst of all I am alone. There is not even a single soul ...

Which I can blame

Which I can blame for the hell hole

Which I can blame for the hell hole that I dug

Which I can blame for the hell hole that I dug for myself

This life is not yours to fuck,

This life is not yours to fuck, no matter how hard you try.

This life is not yours to fuck, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes ...

This life is not yours to fuck, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes ... you'll give it your best,

This life is not yours to fuck, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes ... you'll give it your best, only to realize

This life is not yours to fuck, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes ... you'll give it your best, only to realize you left a bloody mess.

T H E E N D

The story is over, but if you want to read a few more things about dealing with trauma and PTSD, as well as how to not be a "victim" Keep reading.

It will be very brief and then I will direct you to someone who is a competent professional in the topic

Please keep in mind that I am not a psychologist. But I have a somewhat decent understanding of the theory, and more than enough personal experience.

Generally speaking, you will encounter a trauma when you suddenly encounter a reality for which your model of the world can not account for at all.

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that's triggered by a terrifying event — either experiencing it or witnessing it. Symptoms may include flashbacks, nightmares and severe anxiety, as well as uncontrollable thoughts about the event.

Example: You see someone being murdered in front of you.

Example: You see someone being murdered in front of you. Or someone you love betrays you.

Two things happen: 1. The realization that your model of reality was not correct, will cause your psyche to break down. That is what the trauma is.

2. Your brain will have to undergo physical​ changes to accommodate the new reality.

2. Your brain will have to undergo physical​ changes to accommodate the new reality. That is what actual PTSD is.

This is why it can take years to heal...

How is PTSD healed?

UNLESS you can logically explain to yourself what happened, and what you can do in the future to avoid the same event from ever happening again...

It will not heal by itself.

At least I wouldn't count on that happening.

You need to have an absolute grasp on what YOU did to get yourself into that situation. Even if it was only 10% your fault.

Why? It comes down to the fact that: accountability, and personal responsibility, although tough to swallow, lead to long term happiness.

Because they teach you that you are not a victim of the circumstances.

Because they teach you that you are not a victim of the circumstances. The more responsibility you can take, for yourself and others, the more power you have.

This principle is pragmatic and extremely simple. It is akin to lifting weights and getting bigger muscles as a result.

So, let's suppose you are dealing with the trauma.

So, let's suppose you are dealing with the trauma. How do you know when you are done?

So, let's suppose you are dealing with the trauma. How do you know when you are done? The anxiety will reduce and eventually go away.

What is the fear and anxiety that comes with a trauma?

What is the fear and anxiety that comes with a trauma? This is your brain's internal alarm saying: "Danger, Danger!"

It will trigger itself FOREVER, until you can create a more sophisticated model of reality.

What is a more sophisticated model of reality?

What is a more sophisticated model of reality? One which has a mature understanding of evil.

As human beings, we all have the potential to do the most atrocious acts, that any other human has ever done.

After you heal the trauma, you must then become someone who willingly faces the evil inside of you.

Willingly facing the darkness is what makes you courageous.

The way I overcame my last traumatic event, was rather extreme. But it's also because I am older.

What I did to overcome my trauma was:

What I did to overcome my trauma was: I voluntarily​ traumatized myself to a MUCH higher degree than I had been traumatized by life.

If you want to know the details, I basically dived as deeply as I could into the stories, tales and videos from war camp prisoners and something called "Unit 731"

Do not google "Unit 731" yet, because that is likely too extreme. But let me tell you why it worked and how:

There are two basic principles at work behind what I did to myself. 1. I voluntarily​ traumatized myself, and I did it at my own pace.

by that,​ I mean that I began to forge and theory of the world and humans, which even though optimistic, could still account for the most sadistic acts anyone could imagine.

2. Perspective: As horrible as my own experience had been. Reading about what these people went through in prisoner camps, gave perspective to my experience.

Basically, instead of running away from it, I went deeper.

How did I get myself to go deeper? Very simple...

I had tried EVERYTHING in order to avoid going deeper. It wasn't so much courage as it was having no other option.

That is why, if you want to win the war...you burn the ships

Lastly...and most importantly the thing you might not know about me, because I never talk about it is:

I have a nearly infinite amount of love and compassion towards myself.

It's not just something that comes natural, it is something I purposely and consciously every single day, at all times.

Without that, I am 100% I would have ended up mentally broken forever.

T H E E N D

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