What's missing?

On the stage

On the stage all the tiny lights

On the stage all the tiny lights they are on

On the stage all the tiny lights they are on and all around me

On the stage all the tiny lights they are on and all around me shapes of men

On the stage all the tiny lights they are on and all around me shapes of men indicate that they are waiting;

for a message to come out.

I lean in

I lean in open my mouth

I lean in open my mouth but it seems I've forgotten

I lean in open my mouth but it seems I've forgotten how to speak.

Like a dream

Like a dream in which a punch

Like a dream in which a punch it has no speed

Like a dream in which a punch it has no speed no power to connect

Like a dream in which a punch it has no speed no power to connect and I am left invaded

Like a dream in which a punch it has no speed no power to connect and I am left invaded by a blurry fizzle

in which there is no one;

because in dreams one thing is clear:

For our frustration

no one to blame

except ourselves.

and the cables

and the cables are all plugged in!

and the cables are all plugged in! The stand,

and the cables are all plugged in! The stand, placed firmly on the ground!

and the cables are all plugged in! The stand, placed firmly on the ground! The lights,

and the cables are all plugged in! The stand, placed firmly on the ground! The lights, shine directly on my face!

and even though

and even though I don't choke

and even though I don't choke nothing is coming out

and even though I don't choke nothing is coming out and so I ask myself:

What

What am I

What am I missing?