I love drama and I love sadness and I the pain and the torture and all that because it makes for a much interesting life
And where most people of the creative people fuck up is not realizing how MUCH they love the drama.
Whether consciously or subconsciously, you know that the pain is the source of growth and good poetry and stories
and you have conditioned your self to stay unmotivated by going overboard with the sappy shit and now you are stuck
What you need to realize is that good writing comes from being the alchemist who makes gold from shit...
and not the person to whom everything and everyone stinks all the time
As a writer, you are not looking for either happiness or sadness, you are looking for the contrast
What you want is to be the kind of person who can explore the highest highs and lowest lows.
You want to be a hunter, an archeologist of human experiences.
The most valuable humans are those who are stupid and fall into a pit of chaos but then manage to get themselves out,
and when they come out, they recover something from the past and imbue it with new life and their experience.
How can you not be motivated?
Look, I am going to give you a 100% sure-fire way of being THE most motivated person out there.
If you decide NOT to do it, you will at least know that, MAYBE you are full of shit ;)
Grab a copy of the Gulag Archipelago (audio version) and listen to the stories of war camp prisoners
Check out and experience 0.000000000000000001% of what millions of people went through and still do today
And if that does not have you praying the GODS and feeling thankful for having 4 walls and a bed...i don't know lol
Beware though, it's rough... but it will be like a vaccine, something to give you the perspective you really need.