I'm 97% Of My Sexual Orientation, But Then Again, I'm Not Really Sure About Anything

I'm gay

I know that I like girls

I know that I like boys

I know that I like people who aren't girls

And I know that I like people who aren't boys

(Yes, I'm talking about the non-binaries)

But it just gets more complicated from there

I know that I want to cuddle

And to kiss

And to get married someday

Maybe a couple kids

(But I never want to be pregnant because that shit's gross)

I know that so far

The thought of something more makes me want to throw up

Something that a lot of people love

Something that a lot of people call love

I just don't want to have anything inside me (sorry)

Or be inside anyone (this is so gross i'm so sorry)

Because that shit's all so gross

I know that I'm not broken

But maybe I'm just slow

I'm not even 15 yet

Maybe I just don't know

I want to tell myself that if I change my mind

Then that's ok

But there are so many people

Who won't see it that way

If they ask me

"So what's your label?"

I will get stuck right after

"Pan-"

Do I say sexual when I know that might not be true?

Or do I say romantic and risk them judging me?

I know they'll judge me either way

"You're too young"

"You just don't know"

"But are you sure?"

Yes I'm sure

But they won't think so

Do I even have to tell them?

It's not like they want to sleep with me

It's not like anything changes