I know that I like girls
I know that I like boys
I know that I like people who aren't girls
And I know that I like people who aren't boys
(Yes, I'm talking about the non-binaries)
But it just gets more complicated from there
I know that I want to cuddle
And to kiss
And to get married someday
Maybe a couple kids
(But I never want to be pregnant because that shit's gross)
I know that so far
The thought of something more makes me want to throw up
Something that a lot of people love
Something that a lot of people call love
I just don't want to have anything inside me (sorry)
Or be inside anyone (this is so gross i'm so sorry)
Because that shit's all so gross
I know that I'm not broken
But maybe I'm just slow
I'm not even 15 yet
Maybe I just don't know
I want to tell myself that if I change my mind
Then that's ok
But there are so many people
Who won't see it that way
If they ask me
"So what's your label?"
I will get stuck right after
Do I say sexual when I know that might not be true?
Or do I say romantic and risk them judging me?
I know they'll judge me either way
"You're too young"
"You just don't know"
"But are you sure?"
Yes I'm sure
But they won't think so
Do I even have to tell them?
It's not like they want to sleep with me
It's not like anything changes