*CAUTION* - self-harm - toxic relationship - itty bitty language - boyXboy - drinking This is for my enjoyment and not real. So don't read if you are a soft stan or just hate anything that I stated above.
It was 3 am and Jungkook was still laying on the couch waiting for him to get home. Jungkook sat up as he heard a car being parked and people talking outside. He looked around the living room and caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror.
God, he looked awful. His skin was pale and he had dark circles under his bloodshot eyes. Even though he needed sleep he also needed to make sure that he was safe. He was going to lay back down when he heard to door open heard "Jungkook?"
He let out a relieved sigh as Taehyung stumbled into the room. "Jungkook, what are you doing up?" Jungkook looked up to see Taehyung. His hair was all over the place and his glasses were crooked on his nose.
"why were you late?" Jungkook asked softly. "excuse me?" "Why were you so late?" Jungkook said sterner this time. "Just decided to stay out later. what is with the attitude?" Tae said
"You're my boyfriend, tae. How can I not worry? did you expect me to not care where you are? You could've sent a text or called to at least tell me." "Stop worrying then, it is not that big of a deal," Tae said taking off his coat.
"I can't just stop worrying about you. You're unbelievable!" Jungkook said slightly raising his voice. "God, you are so annoying sometimes Jungkook! Just give me a break!" Tae sighed
"oh, give you a break? give you a break?!" Jungkook started to laugh. "No, Taehyung. How about giving me a break? I'm the one that stays up all night waiting for you to get home. I'm the one who has to help you because you're fucking drunk all the time. I'm the one who has to help you with your stupid hangovers.
I'm the one who is suffering here!" Jungkook finished with tears running down his face. "Jesus Christ, Jungkook sometimes I wish that you were somebody else," Taehyung snapped.
Jungkook didn't even flinch at the insult. He heard it before, every month to be precise. Their relationship was so toxic sometimes it was almost too much to take. The only reason that they were still together was that Jungkook still loved him with all of his heart. As Taehyung turned away Jungkook would usually stay silent.
Tonight he couldn't, he couldn't keep the voices in the tiny cage in his head. "It feels like we're on the edge right now..." Jungkook watched as Taehyung stopped in his tracks.
"I wish I could say I'm proud. I'm sorry that I let you down." Taehyung turned to face Jungkook. Jungkook searched his eyes but only found confusion.
"All these voices in my head get loud. I wish that I could shut them out. I'm sorry that I let you down" Jungkook slowly rolled up the sleeves of his shirt.
This is it for pt 1. I hope you enjoyed reading and let me know what you think! Stay safe guys!