I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
I'm Not Okay (I Promise) depression stories
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Trigger Warning, this gets pretty detailed about bad
feels...
Wrote this before I saw the prompt, I edited the prompt-related tags in...

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

My forearm stings with all my pains.

My forearm stings with all my pains. Yet what I wish to escape is still flowing in my veins.

My forearm stings with all my pains. Yet what I wish to escape is still flowing in my veins. My life is something I wish not to take,

My forearm stings with all my pains. Yet what I wish to escape is still flowing in my veins. My life is something I wish not to take, but if I keep living will there be a stake?

Although my life seems yet to begin,

Although my life seems yet to begin, the light at the end of my tunnel is beginning to dim.

Although my life seems yet to begin, the light at the end of my tunnel is beginning to dim. While my life may be fading to black,

Although my life seems yet to begin, the light at the end of my tunnel is beginning to dim. While my life may be fading to black, could there be something I could still take back?

I could swear up and down to my peers that I am not depressed,

I could swear up and down to my peers that I am not depressed, but could my mind just be giving me a test?

I could swear up and down to my peers that I am not depressed, but could my mind just be giving me a test? The bandanna I wear around my wrist,

I could swear up and down to my peers that I am not depressed, but could my mind just be giving me a test? The bandanna I wear around my wrist, could come off with even a twist.

Am I ashamed of what I've become?

Am I ashamed of what I've become? Or do I just not want others knowing what I've done?

Fin.

A few of of you may want an explanation...

A few of of you may want an explanation... Before I came to Commaful, my mental health was deteriorating...

A few of of you may want an explanation... Before I came to Commaful, my mental health was deteriorating... Commaful took my mind off of everything I hated about life, and focused on things I could live for...

Then I tried to help those who were in a situation much like my own...

Then I tried to help those who were in a situation much like my own... I found that it didn't bring back my old emotions, so I agreed to help another when she needed it.

Then I tried to help those who were in a situation much like my own... I found that it didn't bring back my old emotions, so I agreed to help another when she needed it. But last night, something triggered my old feelings...

I felt weak, unwanted, like a mistake...

I felt weak, unwanted, like a mistake... I went back to my old methods of-

I felt weak, unwanted, like a mistake... I went back to my old methods of- Coping...

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