Never Have I

Never have I experienced true love...

Never have I experienced true love... Never have I felt love as split as broken glass...

Never have I experienced true love... Never have I felt love as split as broken glass... Never have I comforted someone on a deeper level...

Never have I experienced true love... Never have I felt love as split as broken glass... Never have I comforted someone on a deeper level... Never have I empathized with anyone.

I want to leave this meaningless existence...

I want to leave this meaningless existence... But to leave what I have always known takes a lot of courage.

I see myself jumping off the roof in my mind's eye...

I see myself jumping off the roof in my mind's eye... But I go there and stay far away from the rails.

Nobody sees me as good enough.

Nobody sees me as good enough. I look into my parents' eyes...

And see...

And see... D I S A P P O I N T M E N T

And see... D I S A P P O I N T M E N T A N G E R

And see... D I S A P P O I N T M E N T A N G E R F R U S T R A T I O N

Disappointment at my incapabilities.

Anger at my lack of seriousness.

And frustration at me.

At who I am becoming.

I'm sorry, Mother.

I'm sorry, Father.

I know I'm not good enough.

I'm sorry.

All I can do is apologize.

[My first poem! Love how it turned out! ;)] Author: queensatan777