When I was young I had an obedient heart
dad told me, "son, girls will rip you apart-
It's been hard to express my feelings correctly
They come and go like a fleeting memory
She came like a flower in spring
I told her I'd hold her, i gave her everything
She came from a broken, hurtful family
Her father left her and her mom spit profanity
I gave her a home on my chest
I made her feel wanted. She said she was blessed
I began to truly and completely adore her
The way she looked down at the floor before her
The sparkle in her eyes that set me ablaze
"Baby you're mine, nobody can take"
The color in the world became strangely bright
And I knew in that moment...I loved her alright
She said she loved me
That she'll stay faithfully
I worked on a life for us, but I never had the money
I was poor and was taught to let nobody help me
I gave it my best, I gave her my all
My heart, my mind, my curtain call
We laughed and made memories to last
For me, it was a love that nothing could surpass
The truth is, my beautiful dead lady
That I'm a creator, an artist maybe
Artists are alone, trapped in their own fantasy
So here I am, telling the world a million thoughts that define my legacy
I'm an artist, possibly
So I painted a life for my baby
I mistakenly painted an awful red tragedy
A little yellow stoke of fruitless dishonesty
The black tree of hatred I painted so swiftly
But I painted my little blue girl ever so breathlessly
For that's exactly what you did to me
You left me breathless and gave me tranquillity
I wanted to give you a family and prosperity
Be the man in your life who treated you fairly
I guess I have a thing for Broken girls in a fucked family
I think I can fix you, heal you physiologically
I still remember the feeling in my heart
Maybe the strings snapped, or maybe Cupid stopped playing his part
She told me, "honey I've lied all along,
You've made me better and I know that I'm wrong.
I fucked another man all for the money,
I'm crying, it's real, my makeup is runny
Please don't leave me
You make my days sunny."
She said, "baby I'm here, baby I'll stay, I promise you baby, I promise I'll change."
But here I am, beaten and broken, away from my family
While you live on in the arms openly with somebody
You showed signs that you never even cared for me
I guess shame on me, my eyes could have seen
My dad told me, "son, girls will tear you apart. Don't give them anything, don't give them your heart."
Here I am, obedient heart broken
If only I'd listened to the words he had spoken
I genuinely cared for you, believe me baby
I stepped away because you broke me you're crazy
A second chance when you've already had 20 ?
I love you Caity, but you'll take the money
Maybe you'll realize it wasn't worth hurting me
Was what we had unique for me only?
But I think that's the story of life
I gave this girl so much, now I have nothing to give a wife
I broke my future, I broke who I am
All for a slut who wouldn't call me her man
I have so much more to say
Like do you even want to change
I still wonder if it ever hurt you
To hear me say, "I love you."
Did I cross your mind when he fucked you?
Was it worth it to lose even me too?
How do you live with yourself when you think of me?
Did you cry inside when I said, "I trust you baby."
I wonder if I come to your mind Daily
Maybe I only get a feature in this months heartbreak story
I pushed my family away for a lady
I pushed my religion away and called it crazy
I gave my heart to you and you sliced it so carefully
I have nothing left to give and no future with somebody
I gave my body, my mind and my time
Then he said he'll pay you and you turned on a dime
I want to say I hate you
I wish that was true
But I realize that I really love you
Sad, you never did too
I'll never take you back
The very thought of you gives me an anxiety attack
I'm deeply depressed
I feel so repressed
You fucked up my life and made me a mess
I wish I could say that you changed
Maybe something in your brain got rearranged
But the truth is so fucking clear
I gave my heart to a girl who never held me dear.
Tongue out like, "ooo give me some money"
"But baby wait, I thought you're my somebody"
I lost you and nothing matters anymore
I wish I could look at my wife not at the floor
Tell her I waited and I'm sorry I'm poor
Baby take this, it's my heart here it's yours
I no longer have a heart to give.
I no longer have a future with a family to live
I can't fall in love, I'll hurt her so deeply
I want to be a good man, but I'm broken and beastly
Women can't steal my heart because it's gone.
Check in my house and dig up my lawn.
It's missing you see and I don't care about you
Don't get attached because I'll warp and I'll screw
What'd you do with all the money, that paper blue bill?
Was your water more expensive, did it buy you your pill?
Maybe it drew thin white lines on your table
Or make your pipe a little more burnable
All I know now is that I'm without you
Time has taken its toll yet I still can't forget blue
Your favorite color, Australian water
The name I wanted to give to our daughter
I never express my feelings correctly
Hopefully I've expressed it clearly through poetry
The last thing I painted in our the canvas called life
a burning home, representing the strife
if she wasn't the one, all girls are in the same category
And I know there's no fucking thing as a true love story.