Changing

Sometimes, when you're trying to change yourself

Sometimes, when you're trying to change yourself It's difficult to remember what it's all for.

Sometimes, when you're trying to change yourself It's difficult to remember what it's all for. I promise I'm trying

Sometimes, when you're trying to change yourself It's difficult to remember what it's all for. I promise I'm trying But years of habit feel set in stone.

Kindness is a challenge for me

Kindness is a challenge for me Perhaps more than it should be

Kindness is a challenge for me Perhaps more than it should be And some days, it would just be so easy to let go

Kindness is a challenge for me Perhaps more than it should be And some days, it would just be so easy to let go Slip away into the cruelty I practiced

Kindness is a challenge for me Perhaps more than it should be And some days, it would just be so easy to let go Slip away into the cruelty I practiced Before I knew better

Kindness is a challenge for me Perhaps more than it should be And some days, it would just be so easy to let go Slip away into the cruelty I practiced Before I knew better And some days I do just that.

But now that I'm awake

But now that I'm awake I know that momentary release

But now that I'm awake I know that momentary release Is not worth the crushing feeling in my chest

But now that I'm awake I know that momentary release Is not worth the crushing feeling in my chest When the anger is over and I'm back to myself.

But now that I'm awake I know that momentary release Is not worth the crushing feeling in my chest When the anger is over and I'm back to myself. So why does it still happen at all?

I read somewhere

I read somewhere A story about a little boy

I read somewhere A story about a little boy Who felt such strong remorse for his actions

I read somewhere A story about a little boy Who felt such strong remorse for his actions And wanted so badly to just be good

I read somewhere A story about a little boy Who felt such strong remorse for his actions And wanted so badly to just be good That he simply was.

Is that the problem?

Is that the problem? Do I just not want it enough?

Is that the problem? Do I just not want it enough? Or am I just a monster

Is that the problem? Do I just not want it enough? Or am I just a monster Incapable of change?

Is that the problem? Do I just not want it enough? Or am I just a monster Incapable of change? Too terrible to ever be redeemed?

Is that the problem? Do I just not want it enough? Or am I just a monster Incapable of change? Too terrible to ever be redeemed? I hope not

Is that the problem? Do I just not want it enough? Or am I just a monster Incapable of change? Too terrible to ever be redeemed? I hope not But I fear perhaps it's true.