One hundred and one words to explain my feelings? Here we go then.
My pain reaches past the point where I can swim, I can make it out there, but there is no way I can swim back. My depression is deeper than I can dive, I can swim downward, but I don't have enough air to make it back to the surface.
The pressure of this body of water is squeezing the air out of my lungs. For some reason I keep swimming though... I don't know when I'll need to resurface for air, I will be too deep though.