At the age of 6, I was sexually assulted and molested by my older sisters best friend.
When I was 7, I had another girls tongue shoved down my throat in a closet.
These are two of the few things that happened to me as a child.
I told you and everyone I knew, that I had never kissed anyone and that I was never touched in any sexual way.
I was ashamed of what everyone might think.. Afraid you'd see me in a new lesser way.
So I today refuse.
I refuse for these things to define me.
I refuse for these things to come between us.
Because I get to choose.
I get to choose who my first kiss was.
I get to choose who touches me in an intimate way.
I get to choose what counts and what doesn't.
And I choose you.
I choose you to be my first love.
I choose to have my first kiss with you.
I choose to embrace you and let you embrace me.
I choose you and that's all that matters.
I refuse to be defined by my past.
I refuse to let my past come between what me and you have.