there's this hole inside of me
nothing you can feel, nor hear nor see
it's just there, constantly
reminding me of the things that are wrong with me
I know that something's missing, the hole, it needs a filling
but there's no manual to it I don't understand
what am I supposed to do? it's not in my hand
I never wanted this this was never my plan
to feel like this, like it's the end
I just want this fucking hole fixed
just put a stop on this fucking emptiness
because I feel dead inside
so just STOP IT before I lose my mind
it already took everything else
my drive, my passion, hell I even lost my fucking self
will it ever close?
give me advice, what do you propose?
should I really just live this way?
when my whole word isn't colours, when it's just plain grey?
what do you say?
wouldn't it be better to just decay?
it makes me less and less and less
and quite frankly, I'm a mess
and I fear
that if nothing will change
it will just eat me up