"No one will miss you!" Is what they said. "Just go die!" They said that too. I believed the first one. Agreed with the second. Those were my first mistakes. My second? I never told a soul.
I should've told someone. I regret it. If I didn't, I wouldn't be--where I am.... Then, of course....I never told anyone that I got attacked that time...coming home from school.
I know, I won't be here when you read this. But I have things to say to all of you.
To Mom, thanks for everything you've done for me and Lexi. You were strong, and I've always looked up to you. Even when Dad wasn't, you were, and I admire that about you.
To Dad, even though I wouldn't say it out loud, I love you, and I hope you solve your problems.
To Lexi, my dear sister....Please don't be upset I left. I won't tell you I'll see you again, because I probably won't. But, I love you, and please forgive me. Don't make this mistake....
Don't be like me.
To Gwen, thanks for helping me through this, even though...I'm still doing it..I love you, and thanks for your support. Please move on, and forget about me.
To Serena, I know when you find out about this, you'll regret it, but please just forget. This was my choice. I would've done it with or without your help.
Just one request from me to you, please don't do it to anyone else.
To Liam, I'm sorry for doing this to you. I hope you find someone else. I hope you forgive me too. I love you. Remember that.
To everyone, I love you all, and I forgive every last thing any of you have ever done. Remember, this was my choice. I would've done it anyway. Goodbye.
Authors note Please know. People love you and care for you! Don’t make this mistake. You’ll regret just as you jump, or stab, or make that last cut, or word on the page. You’ll regret taking that last pill, regret listening to them. You’ll regret not telling anyone.