it no longer feels safe. your hands have taken away the simple feeling of peace.
i am filled with memories of you and the numbing pain of your hands.
i am unsafe. this room is no longer a comfort to me.
i step inside and am reminded only of you.
you should be there
on that bed, in this room. you should be here.
you are not here.
and without you it no longer feels safe
especially with the monster that you have become lurking inside
a memory of wrath and rage and pain.
you once tore away my barriers. my walls. you made that empty feeling go away.
you made me soft and scared but somehow not scared. you made me feel safe.
you made the memories leave.
and now you are only one of the worst memories i have.