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mizanthrop Exorcisms. Better out than in.
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some days, and weeks, are too much

can't

by saskia

today i took the phone off the hook,

today i took the phone off the hook, then wrapped it in a heavy jacket

today i took the phone off the hook, then wrapped it in a heavy jacket and hid it in my drawer.

the drawer where i hide my candy.

the drawer where i hide my candy. I swapped them.

I let the rich, sweet colours take my focus

I let the rich, sweet colours take my focus and forced the world to hide beneath my tastebuds.

so now the world, the phone and i,

so now the world, the phone and i, do not exist.

so now the world, the phone and i, do not exist. for this little while.

i think i'll leave my glasses on my desk today.

i think i'll leave my glasses on my desk today. i'm not sure i want the world in focus,

i think i'll leave my glasses on my desk today. i'm not sure i want the world in focus, and this gives a simple reason for the pain behind my eyes.

there is no point in brushing my hair today,

there is no point in brushing my hair today, my lips are too heavy on my face,

there is no point in brushing my hair today, my lips are too heavy on my face, and my eyelids only seem to bother with every second blink.

there is no point in brushing my hair today, my lips are too heavy on my face and my eyelids only seem to bother with every second blink. or maybe third.

i do not really understand

i do not really understand how this numbness feels just like burning.

or why nothingness weighs heavy, like wet wool.

or why nothingness weighs heavy, like wet wool. and i don't really care.

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