My therapist is mad at me,
missed one too many appointments.
My fault, fair enough, but still hard.
The person that I need to trust,
but when you’re sensitive as me,
any little thing rattles you.
I find trust is too difficult,
and at the anger, want to flee.
It was minor enough to me,
most people wouldn’t even care,
yet still, I’m not at all like most.
I don’t trust anyone but god,
and I don’t trust that god exists.
I don’t even think I trust me.
But trust is what it really is.
The problem I have with others.
I’d rather hurt myself than trust.
I’d rather run and hide than trust.
But trust I find, something I must.
So my question is, how do I?
How do I find the thing called trust,
when I cannot let my guard down?
I’d ask my therapist but then,
well then that would be the problem.