Believe in yourself, you have right over your own decisions. You'll be more than happy after knowing your decision turn out fine. Just exactly you wanted.
There may be ups and downs, you may think this time everyone will give up on you, all you have to do is believe what you are doing is right and defy everything that stops you, everyone who wants to prove you wrong.
In the end, they'll understand you and don't worry if they don't understand be proud of your decision, cause you have to be the one controlling your life no one else, believe me if you can do it you are going on the right path.
GIVE YOURSELF TIME... ones that truly love you will always be your side and you'll probably also find out the person who you can trust blindly, truly blindly.
No one is caging you, you are a free bird no one has enough strength to hold your wings, you don't need anyone but you, instead of holding up find out who sets you free be with them, and if you find them love them like your first and last love, defy everyone who stops you and distances you from them.
you'll know who will love you forever you'll never need to ask from them just by seeing them you'll know that your decision was right. Go On and DeFy EvEN MoRe.