I love being alone
I get time to just think about everything.
I get to rid myself of hellish anxiety.
Sometimes I even get to discuss with myself about life
but at the same time I hate being lonely
I don't like having no one to talk with
no one to let my soul out to
being alone is like being in a void
for long enough its great to be in
but to long and its like your losing who you are
like your person just evaporates and all that's left is that emotionless body
Very cold, and very alone
so being alone is like a double edged blade
one edge is to keep your thoughts in tact and your mind deep
the other edge destroys you as a human being
slashing at your personality making it bleed out of the mind
but a double edged blade still has a side for problems just as well as it dose for solutions
so I suppose that's why I love it
as much as it helps me in life I'm just as fine taking the risk
the risk of losing who I am by bleeding myself with that edge
and I'm fine with that because sometimes to better yourself
you must lose something about yourself.
I'm fine with that if it means I can deepen myself.