I was almost 13 when i experienced what I would call "my first love"
and even though years have gone by, I still haven't moved on from him
Every day i would be so so excited to see his messages that he would send that gave me butterflies in my stomach.. in a good way though
Something about him attracted me, but we weren't opposites
Dont get me wrong though! we were very different too
He was taller than me , so tall i had too look up to see his face
He was also very wise
With a simple glimpse into his beautiful eyes, i could see he was hiding a dark and lonely past
While he didn't dwell on his past, he sometimes went through phases of complete darkness
But his bright self always came back again
I admired him for his strength
I was afraid of the dark, but when he sat next to me, I was never scared
His presence illuminated everything around me, and his personality glowed in a way I'd never seen before
Everyday, he let me tell him embarrassing secrets nobody else knew
He was always there for me and was never too tired to listen
While I was very open with him, he kept his life private
Looking back, I assume he was still pissed off about his ex girlfriend, but he never let me know what it was
All I remember was his words saying that he was sorry and we couldn't be a thing anymore and that we should still at least be friends but he said he still liked me..
I didn't want to be friends, I wanted to be more then friends, I wanted you to give me that chance, And Why say you "like me" when you just want to stay friends?! And I hate even thinking about his name and him in general but..
I cant get over him because He made me feel special He made me feel happy Like-the happy my parents never gave me as a child but He gave me this happy feeling with his kiss and his stupid hair i liked to mess up all the god damn time! And His stupid black hoodie that i took because he gave it to me-
and even thinking about those things.. makes me happy.. but also sad because he went left ,I went right but i didn't want to go right i wanted to go left with him - 𝐄𝐦𝐦𝐢𝐞, 𝐌𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐰𝐫𝐥𝐝