Chapter 3: Pain, HOPE AND WORSHIP TO GOD
After the rejection of her brother, she feels so rejected.
She knows about now what is the real pain?
"Real pain is when you feel hopeless.
The real pain is when she is considering as a no one.
The real pain is when she is unconsciously smiling and her sister taunts her that why you have the right of smiling.
The real pain is when your loved one, your brother who was dearest to her.But her brother when sees her, ignore her"
She decided to come through all the mess. She became hopeless. She once suicide. But all in vain.
She once wrote in her diary: "Oh God, why, why you don't even accept me. Why you also rejected me. My greatest fear was to go far away from my brothers. My mother feels that man's existence is important.
but you take away my real father at two years old. but my father who was not real was the real hero of mine. But you take away him too. Then I made a mistake and my brother also rejected me. And now I came to you. You also rejected me."
But it is said that when your bad time starts then death even didn't accept you. This was the same situation as her.
She was a great dreamer. She wants to explore more in life but her life ended.
But this was her thoughts. She started to feel like she is a loser.
But, one day she was praying to God. She feels that her tears are coming out of her eyes. She didn't even cry in front of her family. But she cried in front of God.
She remembers that once her father told her about hope, faith, and trust. "The most deserving personally who trust you, who hides your all mistakes and even forgive you is God.
If you go toward the dark path, only bad thoughts will destroy you, and when you believe that bad time is just for the little time. God will change the entire situation.
She remembers all this, and then she decided to be happy. Once she talked to the mentor. She asked her to talk to God then you feel comfortable. Only cry in front of God. Not try to cry in front of others"
She started to talk to God and feels happy inside
She decided to continue her life and try to be strong.
Then she encounters again a great challenge.