So is this what happens when a heart learns to hope?
La vie en rose in a sick monochrome
Imagination running wild with thoughts I can't cope
Colours invade my world with a bleak fog, concealing the glow.
They say you can't sleep when you fall in love,
because reality is finally better than your dreams,
I've been disenchanted, disillusioned, God knows what I've been deprived of,
Who knew a heart could still love torn at the seams?
I saw this coming a mile away
and still I'm shell-shocked with nothing to say
It's taking every inch of my sanity
to not throw myself back into love shamelessly
I dug a grave for my emotions, locked in my chest
Buried it six feet under, zip-file compressed
Hid them high on the highest shelf, outta sight outta mind
But just one look at you, like a pent-up spring
The tape rewinds
I want to hold your hand and feel it in mine
I want to give it a squeeze and look in your eyes,
to kiss you, to want you, to give all that I am
But I'm hollow and empty inside,
I can't give what I don't have.
Have I lost myself? Have I gone insane?
Neither, I can't lose what I never had
just numb this pain
I guess this is just what happens to the brain
when a heart still loves and longs with hope lost in vain.