Woke up in the morning and felt something missing!!!
I know for fact that people come and go, but still, I can't control my fellings. It's way hard for me not to be attach with the people showing me kindness, care and fake love.
One day someone sent me a messege, asking if we can chat. But since I'm afraid to trust someone that easy I told him that I don't have time with a stranger.
Then he use the magic word! " I just want to find new friends . I just need a stranger that I can talk with, that I can share all my pain.
" And that makes me feel that I need to response with his chat !!!
He told me a lot if things about him and I felt like " this man need to be love, deserve to be love and most of all he is worth fighting for...
We become comfortable with each other, We do video call all the time even he is at work. He makes me feel that he totally in to me.
Then one day he started call me "Wife" he told me that he loves me! But since I have trust issue I never response I love him too.
Untill I get drunk, out of no where I called him "husband" then I told him that I also starting to love him.
Then everything changed!!! Now we are like couple!!! I felt si bless I always thanking god for sending him to my life[?
I never been into relationship before that's why I'm so scared but now I am willing to take a risk and I do my best to make this work❤️
Untill one day I felt that somethings changed. We talk about it and I always understand him. I decided to stay even I know for fact that there is something wrong .Even this feeling confused nd hurt me a lot.
I knew it!!! He will leave me!!!
And the most scary moment came.
He left me without saying goodbye!!! I don't know why, I kept asking my self what did I've done for him to just left me?
But this is life!!! You can't just force people to stay with you even you still want them to your life!!!
Now I realized that there is two type of gift from God.
BLESSING: The person who us meant for you!!! Who will stay and stand for yoy as long as possible. That someone who will spend their intire life with you❤️
And LESSON: A PERSON WHO WILL MAKE YOU REALISE THAT LIFE IS FULL OF STRUGLE AND AND PEOPLE NEVER STAY NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO!
Untill now I'm still broken!!! And I promised to my self that I will be wiser next time.
Because no matter how you willing to fight for someone you love as long as he doesn't want you anymore , you have nothing to do with it!!!
All you can do us just try to move on and make sure that it wont happen again