I have decided that I would like to get sober. Seriously I thought it would be a lot easier than it is.
I am no more sober now, than I was the moment I decided I wanted to be. I used to look at junkies and have no empathy, but plenty of disdain.
If I could go back I would congratulate them, for still sticking around, despite being at, what most would call, rock bottom. I am sure they all decided plenty of times to get sober, and meant it.
But forgot the next day.. or found it too hard. Just like me. If only will power was a drug. Then I would mainline that shit straight into my jugular.