When i take a sip of these tainted grapes
it’s like a time capsule drops right in front of me
and i’m like a kid in the candy store eager to enter
i jump in fearlessly
only to face my fears
only to face the reasons why i dont face my problems
instead of stopping i sip more and more
shaking the bottom of the bottle for one last drip
that drip is my hope
I enter a place that is similar to the screen referees go to
the screen of replay
is it a foul?
was their action foul?
in my case, they all should have gotten fouls
the type that suspend you for the rest of your career
injure me then we leave it up to the referees to decide the validity of my pain
he can come back into the game? you suggest i brush it off?
“ this is a game for growns up, Alyssa”
His actions are justified and he is back in the game
He scores a point and his family is filled with victory
what happened to me is already forgotten
i dont feel the pain as much so i start to agree with the referees
this is repairable
but one day,
during a game
the referee got hurt
he wasnt playing the game, so it wasnt justified
when did i sign a contract to these rules?
and why when he broke them, i suffered?
i just wanted to follow the rules and i got hurt and punished
i wish i could feel like that kid in the candy store
instead i feel like the cashier who works there watching everyones happiness
so i go to the store and buy another bottle
these grapes arent tainted