I know you don't love me. I know you want to die. I know I love you. I know I want to die.
But that isn't the only thing I want to do. I want to Kill you before I do. You honestly can't believe I want you to live? I want you to drop dead. You probably don't know why. But I do.
You hurt me after saying that you wouldn't. Apparently, it's okay for you to hurt me, but it's not okay to hurt myself. I don't care anymore. I just want you dead. I just don't want you to die from your own hand.
I want you to live till I kill you. I don't want to, but I will. I don't understand it myself. Trust me. I know I'm BatShit Crazy. But that's what you loved about me.