almost like drifting into sleep,
but somehow different.
In this state of non-sleep,
I still see through my eyes,
and yet it feels as though I am far away from what I see,
as though I am watching a screen from a distance,
the distance ever increasing with each passing moment.
further and further,
weightless and alone.
I see nothing around me,
the television screen of my eyes,
too far now to see.
There is only an empty void,
inky blackness all around,
I do not even see my own body,
...is this real?
feeling in equal measure fear,
and hopeless defeat,
as well as a cold comfort that I can't quite understand.
All that I am seems so far away,
I have left all that ever was,
and all that ever will be,
leaving all of my worries,
accepting this new state of being,
it soothes me.
It feels as though I have been falling for a decade,
this is my home,
peaceful and alone.
feeling a sudden hot rush,
through the body I forgot that I had.
I am thrust at such tremendous speed,
up and up,
much faster than I fell.
I no longer feel weightless,
I feel the weight on every point of my body,
contact against my back,
like a giant hand lifting me from my endless slumber.
The fear that had left is now very real once more,
what is to become of me?
As I rapidly ascend I see streams of light,
something that seems so alien,
yet familiar to me.
I can once again see through my eyes,
I can once again feel the weight of the world,
and I find myself missing the emptiness of the void.