I wish I knew how to not take everything as a personal attack. He wants some time alone but it feels like a knife twisted deep through my back
I wish I knew how to cope better with being criticized and how to be given advice without feeling patronized
I wish I knew how to stop myself from being self-destructive whenever I feel alone and how to stop being so attached and stop waiting by my phone
I wish I knew how to let things go once in a while and how to have a disagreement without turning hostile
I wish I knew how to not overwhelm everyone I love until they’re totally pushed away and how to be normal instead of needy and how to make him want to stay
I wish I knew how to just be his friend, nothing more or how to tell him I need more than he’ll give me, without starting a war
I wish I knew how to make him love me with his whole heart or how to listen as he says he doesn’t without feeling like my world is being torn apart.
I wish I knew how to stop wishing for anything at all and how to get over him, be happy, and not feel so small.