Time is floating by
Yet I do not feel as if anything is happening
Being on my own is fine, but I can't help but crave the company of someone else
Someone to lay next to me and kiss me
But also someone who will talk to me about the overwhelming amount of feelings I keep consumed within myself
Someone who will just actually care about me
But then I can't help but shake the looming fear
That letting someone get that close to me again will end up with me getting hurt
So do I risk it?
Can I will myself to let someone in again?
Or am I just going to keep trudging on longing for something that isn't there