I am sinking.
Icy water swirls around me,
Threatening to numb me of all feeling.
Fighting against the pain of frost bitten fingers and toes,
I close my eyes and imagine taking a deep breath,
Fresh air filling my lungs.
I use all the power I have in my arms and legs, forcing them downward into the chilling abyss.
Slowly, I feel myself being propelled toward the surface.
I turn my head slowly to the water above me,
And the flicker of hope I had is completely gone.
The surface feels a thousand years away.
My hope gone, I close my eyes and tell myself
I try to once again to imagine fresh air giving me strength,
letting me stay calm,
But all I can feel is the water,
Swallowing me up,
Giving me pain,
All at once,
A calmness passes over me.
I can no longer feel the pain,
Not longer do I feel afraid.
Now the water around me is comfortable.
Now I relax.
Now I stay calm.
Maybe I just gave up,
But now I can breathe