By you. By me. By your actions.
By my love-blinded version of you.
I took my time to heal.
I thought I was okay,
Then I saw your face.
At first I was happy to see you,
But then the memories came with you.
It was if I was reliving every moment.
Every moment in which I lost myself.
And it reopened my wounds.
Now I sit here broken and bleeding.
Wondering if you’ll ever know.
Will you ever know
How your words stung?
Stung like the winter wind on my cheeks.
Or how much I desperately wanted
To be what you needed.
But I’ll be okay. I promise.
I’ll be what I need.
I’ll learn to love myself as much as I loved you.
I loved you.
You’ll never know,
Because you don’t deserve my love.