Suicide Attempt

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This is nonfiction please take caution!

Suicide Attempt

by lilyann5973


im not a sunshine and rainbows writer this will be a brutal truth please be warned

the beginnings

it started as just thought to help escape the pain

then the plans

the plans began just before my fourteenth birthday

the actions before

i set everything up painstakingly carefully

everyone was asleep i locked myself in the bathroom and began the worst part

the instant

i began with cutting then i laid out the pills and swallowed them four at a time

right after

i sat in my bathtub crying thinking about my life and trying to go to sleep so that it could all just end

the talk

i sat there for awhile just talking to god hoping to end up in heaven but believing i belonged in hell

this is the end of part 1

part 2 will be my road to recovery and sort of just continue where i left off

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lilyann5973still alive
8 months agoReply
I turned it into 2 parts! part 1 is complete!

lilyann5973still alive
8 months agoReply
@bernardtwindwil @traptluv thank you for your kind words! I hope to finish this one by christmas time!

bernardtwindwilGold CommaGranddad & story teller,
8 months agoReply
This post was raw. It was incredibly courageous of you to write this. We need your words to continue. I need to hear from you. You don't have to write these obviously painful remarks, just write. We need you. Grewat post!!!!!!!!!

traptluvArtist. Aspiring writer. Cynical comic.
9 months agoReply
Hey there, Suicide is a very serious matter and I want you to know that you are not alone in this world. Sometimes we go through life feeling sad and unhappy with where we are and it's okay. I encourage you not to give up. You may feel like hurting yourself during those times, but self harm is not a solution; it's like putting on a band aid over a flesh wound. If you feel lonely and scared in this world, that's perfectly okay. Everyone feels sad. Everyone feels scared. Everyone feels lonely. That's a part of being a human being. What's most important is that you don't end your life. You are a very special person even if you don't want to believe it. You are brave for writing about your feelings publicly and I want you to know that your thoughts have not gone unnoticed. You are a bright individual and I suggest that you talk to someone about the way you really feel. If you are depressed, please talk to someone about that. It may be hard, but I promise it will be okay. Talking about how you feel is always a first step towards self-healing, so please don't end your life. You are important and you matter a lot.