hopelessly suffocating in the loss of who i was,
and what i wanted.
choked by my thoughts,
my cries for help muffled by an ego
that is my own.
i cannot breathe
and i fear i will disappear without a trace
if i don't remember who i wanted to be
before all of this happened to me.
before i pinched myself,
thinking it was a dream
until i woke up
and realized it was.