by Li Dang
The most convenient thing about memory
is the fact that it is flawed.
There was a movie that kept replaying in my head:
I had memorized every line, every expression, stage direction, and re-watching the movie was as easy as breathing.
But this movie turned into broken scenes
where certain lines were said, frowns were emphasized, movements were characterized, and before I knew it, I was a movie critic.
I don't like this movie anymore;
I kept rewriting the script, with less emotion, less devotion, and breathing became exhausting.
Though once in a while,
those old broken scenes'll play together and I realize that it isn't a matter of breathing but holding my breath.
The most inconvenient thing about memory
is the fact that I can't forget you.