tears pour out from my eyes, i look in the mirror, my face is dry. i scream and yelp, like a pack of wolves howling at the moon, nothing comes out. my knees tremble and shake, bats fly in my stomach.
the gate in my throat closes. i lay there in silence. with just my breath barely moving in me.
i climb that tower to be free, looking down at the trees. just one second. falling, crashing into the darkness below, again and again.