I know that I always push you away
I know when I need you the most
I don’t want to be an unwieldy burden
and it hurts every time you’re hurt
and yes, I’m aware I love you more than myself
but I don’t know why I keep this distance
between our glaring love
am I afraid if I love you closely I might lose you and never touch you again?
or am I not ready to pour all the love that I got until one day it won’t be enough?
or maybe, I enjoy loving you from afar so I don’t get too attached