Guess i should start saying sorry. Sorry because i can´t tell you any of this to your face. Sorry because i fall in love with him.
He was your best friend first, even way back than me, but let me tell you how i felt when you introduce us. I never felt anything for anyone, you know that.
I am a girl who in 22 years never felt any little romantic thing for anyone but him... you know when in books the main character say that their heart skip a beat, well that happen to me.
That first contact when we shook hands was all i need to know that the reason why i never felt anything before was because i haven´t meet him yet.
And know that months go by and we speak every day, read books together until 3 am and share our thoughts over phone i know, i know that i love him.
I know you like him, you told me that as i felt like a statement. That is why i can´t tell you how i feel because i rather broke my heart in tiny pieces before broken yours.
You are so fragile and i would hate to know that i can be the cause of you breaking apart.
But i love him, and we have been going out for a while, small encounters in a library or for an ice cream. He took my hand in the cinema and we haven´t told you. Is our little secret.
So, sorry from the bottom of my heart. Because i died a little every time you tell me how he doesn´t reply to you texts or doesn´t talk to you in a couple of days.
But honestly, you have change since you told me your feelings for him. You started watching his favourite tv shows and listen to his music. And that burns me from the inside.
You don´t have to that for him or any man for that matter. Be yourself.
Im sorry for advance because i know that i have to tell you this one day.
I feel like the worst friend in the world and maybe i am. But hurting you... i can´t. I can´t hurt you anymore.