The three words that define the feminine
I sometimes have trouble with this
I believe many women do...
I was ten, I was like a rabbit, bracing
Myself to combat any predator. I would clean and clean and clean and when my younger siblings say down to watch tv, I would never fully sit down.
My butt wouldn't touch the floor, I only hovered, in case my father saw me not working. My body was tense. Did I know how to relax?
I was 14. I would try to receive things, friendships especially, but it always seemed to clatter out of my hands. I tried holding on real tight, and they only popped.
So years later, when I see people who are nice to me, I would brush them off into the garbage of "I have trust issues." Did I know how to receive?
I was expressive, but people's weird looks and laughs quickly sputtered that
Years later I would only do a small smile instead of screaming and laughing, or I would say I'm fine when I'm actually exhausted,
or I'll cry instead of communicating how I actually felt into words.
Did I know how to respond?
Day by day, I am learning my feminine.
An aura of joy took over me, it can be uncomfortable sometimes, but at
The end it's so peaceful,
To operate how I truly am.