I am tired of the old.
It is 2020 now,
And I am tired of feeling my cells close in,
Tired of feeling like I can't move or breathe,
Preparing myself for disappointment, preparing myself for rejection
Like how a bear hibernates for a winter, how ants provide for the winter.
I have newness in my spirit.
I should smile, no matter what happens.
You know why? Because You got me!
I am already laden with the gifts to handle possible rejection
I also have the gift to receive
To receive a gift of newness.
Maybe, I prepare myself for oldness and negativity so much because deep down,
I feel like I don't deserve God's blessing.
God's sweet, newness of love translated into a human being
Perhaps I feel like, this can't be real.
This is too good, too new, to be true.
I've never tasted this before, it's delicious
Jesus, is this real?
I am tired of wondering. Of Worrying. Of Fearing Of Pumping brainwashed media in my brain: "This is no good!"
I am going to act like a real Christian
And operate in Faith.
I will go forth towards the Newness
Stroke it, nuzzle it, tell it hello
And I will expect it to snuggle me back
Instead of biting me into oldness.
Thank you for your newness, Lord.