I Remember Those Feelings
I Remember Those Feelings poetry stories
  3
  •  
  0
  •   0 comments
Share

kensquires
kensquires A Poet, A Writer, A Creative Guy
Autoplay OFF   •   12 days ago
Back in June of 2011 I wrote a book called Unanswered Prayers In one of them I said that I would pray for God to take me away from this life

I Remember Those Feelings

Back in June of 2011 I wrote a book called Unanswered Prayers

In one of them I said that I would pray for God to take me away from this life

Always questioning why he chose to take my Father and leave me

I'm sure I would have left a small void to fill

Now here I sit in September of 2020 at times I'm still praying to God to take me away

This life would be better off for so many others if I wasn't apart of it

I feel like I'm just slowing them down because nothing works out for me

No small accomplishments

No big accomplishments

Feeling like I just slow everyone down with everything I do

Never given the fair chance, always feeling like every task is that much more difficult to do

Nobody seems to understand that

How can a simple task be so difficult for you ?

Not sure if I can overly explain it, but I feel like with every task that I have to live up to others expectations

I don't even know if I have expectations of my own to live up to

Got too many from others that they feel that I need to live up to

Constantly getting told by my Mom "Well your brother did it, why can't you"

But yet if I fuck up the way my brother did and turned to her and said "Well my brother did it that way"

She would automatically expect more from me

Like I'm not allowed to make mistakes and have to do everything positive that everyone else does and more

I never told anyone but back around twenty fifteen (2015) I was looking up homeless shelters

Nothing in my nearby town, but things at least an hour away

Was going to pack my bag and take off one day when I was here alone

Wasn't going to leave any sort of note or anything just vanish into thin air

Yeah at the time I was engaged, wasn't even going to tell her

I honestly don't think she would have cared

I didn't know what I wanted in life back then

Similar to now, but now I'm alone

Now I know nobody wants me

Ken

Stories We Think You'll Love 💕

Get The App

App Store
COMMENTS (0)
SHOUTOUTS (0)