It has been a trial of emotion.
The varying degrees has left me exhausted.
I’ve encountered so many people, most unpleasant. Their negativity enshrouding my light.
Yet, towards the end of each day, I always have you to be with. To release the dam of emotion and allow myself the moments of unfiltered vulnerability.
But recently, not only has the world been hurting me, but you as well.
The distance. The silence. The ignorance.
I understand the need for space. But with no warning or reason, the hurt begins to seep into the cracks of rooted doubt.
Is it me? Did I say something? Do something? Am I finally becoming too much?
The thoughts circulate and the hurt I had endured from the world recedes when I begin questioning the value you may hold for me.
I am hurting. So deep, it’s bubbling in my being. Yet never surfacing for you to see