So many emotions running through my head
Am I better alive
Or happier dead
I don't know on whom I can depend
Every new connection leads to a dead-end
Seems as if I have no friends
I don't know how much more my heart can bend
Any second it might be the end
Hit after hit I keep getting thrown in the pit
The pit I can't escape
Do I need a hero who wears a cape?
I don't know how much longer I can act ok
I can only put on a fake smile and say I'm fine
On the hardest of days
I'm tired of fighting
Sick of trying
Yes im smiling
But inside im dying
Out of tears from crying
And I can't stop thinking about dying
What more do I have to fight for?
I've lost my pets
I've lost my friends
I've lost my love
Whom I thought I could always depend
Why does life hate me
I wish someone would save me
Will it ...ever... get better?
What even is better? all my life has been
Heartbreak, tears, scars and a pit of darkness
I can't escape the dark pit
So why not welcome it
I mean hell I spend most my days in it.