My experience with bullying
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Bullying is not a joking matter

My experience with bullying

by kassaundrachur1

Kindergarten and preschool were great coloring and fun

Then first grade came and there were comments of ugly and

Fat from older kids

Second grade it got worse I had my first kiss (forcebly)

Then they added slut

Third grade they lightened up a little most fat and Ugly

I was young and already hating myself

Fourth grade there was too far to live. I wanted to die

I attempted suicide in 4th grade !! I was too fat to live and everyone hated me

I felt so alone like nobody would care if I was gone

Not really many people did when I tried

They started calling me Emo and many other cruel things

Then 5th grade came and I had severe depression

6th grade was horrible I had had enough of getting called

FAT

I stopped eating completely

I got fatally sick spent 2 weeks in intensive care

Because I wasn't eating at all not even drinking water

Then 6th grade came I began eating again I went from

50 pounds to 100

The summer of 6th grade I was sexually assaulted

By my uncle

7th grade was tough I had many mean names

Every kid and teacher hated me

I had no friends at this point the bullying went from

Verbal to physical

One time I was getting kicked and hit in the middle of the

School a teacher was there and didn't do anything at all!! She actually encouraged the kids

It was horrible I covered it with makeup

8th grade was still really bad

I had my third suicide attempt ( second was after my assault)

I just finished my first year of high school

It was actually not as bad I only had a few mean names

But best of all I found a great church

I hope sophmore year isn't bad

As of right now my eating disorder is coming back

I haven't been eating a lot and am concerned about my weight

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a year agoReply
It gets better, just keep hanging in there and try to focus on the little things in life - sunsets, raindrops, just whatever you can find to focus on. It's difficult to change your perspective and it will take you years to recover, but it is worthwhile in the end. I also struggled with eating disorders, one thing I found helped was to look in the mirror everyday and compliment my body. Literally every single day I had to find something good to say about myself, and I always added "and I am perfect just the way I am" to every single compliment. It was beyond hard to do at first since I could find nothing in myself that I considered beautiful, but eventually I started to believe what I was saying. Eating disorders never really go away, just like bullies they will pop up every so often even in your adult life, but it's up to you to choose to fight back and not give in. Your enemy is yourself, all those parts of you that drag you down. You are fighting against your eating disorder, your depression, your suicidal thoughts and all your other demons. But unless you start to believe you can win you will always lose. I believe in you. Keep fighting and stay strong, you are not alone.

a year agoReply
@kassaunsrachur That's great you are getting help and I'm so glad that you got into a church , because getting help form medical, and people is one thing, but your hurt, your scars, your battle wounds are another the only one who can really help you is the Lord. He can take all your pain away, because he already did he already paid the price, he loves you so much, even when is feels like no one could or would, he loves you so much, that he died for you. You are loved! Never forget that. I will pray for you:)

kassaundrachur1Bronze CommaI write about serious issues in society
a year agoReply
No need to be sorry I have a triumph now it's still. A struggle but I'm making it through with support and health

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a year agoReply
:( :( this is a really powerful and sad story. @jennycameron had something similar too :( i'm sorry to hear this