I reread the old messages quietly
Trying my best not to notice the tears.
And wonder what you would say
If you were here.
Probably something along the lines
Of I wish I didn't hurt you.
Or maybe even that you regret
Messing with my mind.
The message I stop on
brings a sob to my throat.
It was from the middle of an argument.
I don't even know what it was about.
"You are my biggest regret" it reads.
But is that all I am? Just a regret?
I should be more than that.
I should be moonlight and bright stars.
Or chocolate covered cherries.
Maybe even words that you can't bring yourself to write.
Because once upon a time
I was all those things and more.
Those memories and nightmares
That kept us both up past dawn.
So don't say I am a regret.
Because that is possibly the worst thing you could say.
Because I don't regret a single moment with you.
Despite all the pain you have caused.