he called me beautiful
he gave me kisses...
whispering promising things in my ear
"I'll never leave you"
"I'll never hurt you baby girl"
he would listen to me when I'd vent
he would smile and nod
and agree with me as I go on and on...
he never told me to stop crying
so I guess I owe him now
I never complained about the things he says,
even when they don't sound right...
"i love you babe, but you're a bitch sometimes"
and when he asks if I am uncomfortable, I say no
even if I don't want his hands on my body.
even if I don't want him to pin me down.
because I owe him.
"I will hurt you"
"i hate your guts"
He never got in trouble
because he told everyone, I wanted it,
how would he know?
Hes going to do it again if he finds out I tell anyone
he knows where I live, where I sleep.
he knows my family
and my friends
he knows exactly how to break me.
He will do it if he has to
"what did you expect, that someone would actually love you?"