When I Try To Write Out My Problems
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iammeAnd the sunflowered moon whistled
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When I Try To Write Out My Problems

by me

is it all in my head

why do I want to push myself further into denial

when I know what's going on

when I know that how I am feeling

And what I am hiding

is

but admitting that something is wrong

I simply can't

There's no space for that

I can't just

I'm lost

help.

I don't understand

why

why I can't just fucking do it

who am i anymore

I am the girl who never spoke her mind.

always keeping her thoughts and emotions to herself.

The girl who wants to escape from her reality.

She has been a puppet for too long.

Hiding in the shadows, afraid to speak up.

She hates it here.

She hates herself.

But she could never admit that to anyone.

I could never admit that to myself.

I need a way out, Dios

Give me a way out

I need your presence

to find my will

Deus, please

I pray to you everyday

pleading for something

Anything to get me away

Away from here

I pray for you to find my happiness

because I have lost it and I fear that it will not return

my life is okay though

I am okay

everything in my head is okay

everything in this town is okay

it is all okay

I just need to convince myself

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iammeAnd the sunflowered moon whistled
10 months agoReply
@bernardtwindwil Thank you. You are always very supportive of my work.

bernardtwindwilGold CommaGranddad & story teller, tomthepo8.com
10 months agoReply
This was haunting and plaintive. Sometimes we get so desperate to escape the pressure we will turn anywhere. Great job!!!!

sarah5Bronze CommaToo cool for school
10 months agoReply
i feel the same way often. <3