is it all in my head
why do I want to push myself further into denial
when I know what's going on
when I know that how I am feeling
And what I am hiding
but admitting that something is wrong
I simply can't
There's no space for that
I can't just
I don't understand
why I can't just fucking do it
who am i anymore
I am the girl who never spoke her mind.
always keeping her thoughts and emotions to herself.
The girl who wants to escape from her reality.
She has been a puppet for too long.
Hiding in the shadows, afraid to speak up.
She hates it here.
She hates herself.
But she could never admit that to anyone.
I could never admit that to myself.
I need a way out, Dios
Give me a way out
I need your presence
to find my will
I pray to you everyday
pleading for something
Anything to get me away
Away from here
I pray for you to find my happiness
because I have lost it and I fear that it will not return
my life is okay though
I am okay
everything in my head is okay
everything in this town is okay
it is all okay
I just need to convince myself