I was a human broken into millions of pieces
Glued together by hate and desperation
Anger and revenge flowed through my veins
My muscles were formed with hypocrisy
And bones made with scheming and manipulation
My heart was hollow as that pumpkin you carve for holloween
Beautifully decorated outside but an empty void inside
I tried to fill it up with things that made me feel alive.
Every positive feeling were as temporary as those fake tattoos
That I get from the bubble gum that I ate as a child.
The number of times that I contemplated death
like it was a marshmallow laid before me
and I had to either wait till I am allowed to consume it
or just eat it and enjoy the moment.
Everything was fleeting and life seemed better 6 feet under.
Misery kept me company during my birthdays
while I was high and alone in an empty couch reflecting my existence
Every puff I took was as like a candle blown to make a wish in a 4 tier cake I used to have as a child when life was simpler.
I wished for happiness. I wished for hope. I wished for relief.